A Backstabber's Comeback

Do u see the knife you have so nicely embedded into my back and chest? Do u think such a wound heals fast that an invitation or a non-intrusive sms will do the trick to seal back the wounds quickly and not even leave a scar? Just what kind of a fucking world are u living in?

So mabbe tell me what else I should do at this point, should I just agree to your sudden whims of niceties and further embed myself into your torture chamber so that u can continue to do what you do best, seek out the vulnerabilities and tear my wounds further apart? You've done it once and you done it again but this time...you were the most conniving and vindictive bitch I have ever seen.

It's ironic how you expect everything to be so easy...forgotten. I don't live in your test tubes! I do not want to be part of your stupid games. Maybe you don't remember that I told you I will never trust you again to which you retorted "Good!" exuberantly so maybe let's just leave it.

Trust does not come cheap especially when it is always on my expense. To you, it has always been too cheap, too negligible, which has thus resulted in your actions thus far.

Manipulator

Trust is so easy to give away but so hard to be earned. I have always rendered my trust to you and thought you would never judge me otherwise. I thought our relationship was one unrivalled compared to many others but then I am sorely wrong. You are my own blood yet you have hurt me intermittently at the blatant excuse that is how you love. I have truly seen how you "love" today. Everything I have entrusted you, you have taken and hurled it against me. I do not know why you are so angry, so mad ... but if for everything it is worth and you feel that your actions are justified, then so be it. You have truly shown yourself. It seems like you are unhappy when I am happy. Though you claim you hurt when I do, it doesn't seem so cos all you want to do is keep beating me down. Why do you derive such joy from such manipulation?

Why bring up instances dat makes everyone mad at everyone else and diverge from the actual root of the problem? You are truly amazing...truly despicable...i have nothing to say except I am disgusted with you. I do not hate you but I can never feel the same way about you again.

I have aways admired your strengths and affirm them with you. But have you ever done the same other than criticize all the time? Why are you so unhappy? Your actions are totally unjustified despite the false fronts you put up and the lame excuses you give. Are you just too good to ever put yourself in someone's shoes and understand that context?

I will never understand and mabbe I shouldnt try cos at this point, I am only dejected and disgusted...there is no hate...only indifference.

Sadist

It is hard for me to put down this post. But to someone that I love(d), I just want to say dat I hope u are truly happy now that u have made everyone unhappy. Try looking inward to see what is the real underlying issues and quit putting your blame on everyone. It is ironic how you like to stand on ur own soap box and preach about a myraid of values when sometimes the one who is truly lacking in some of those especially compassion is yourself. Stop sidelining the real issue with little shits that are totally irrevelevant. If winning to you is to pull all stops out and not think about the people you hurt and betray their trust, then you are truly a sadist. You made this a sad outcome all out from your own anger and no one else's. The whole world does not revolve around your whims and fancies and everyone close to you is not a subject of your emotional vent and verbal abuse.

What i see for myself is disheartening. The damage to me has already been done but when I see you hurt others I love and yet you remain in total oblivion, it baffles me about your whole idea of love. You skirt the issue and place it on stress. Reach down inside yourself to see what is really eating you out. If that is what it is, even more so, is exacting that cause onto the rest of us even a fair deal? But wait, mabbe you will never see that because your lack of self reflection will hinder you from true analysis.

Think you have shown your love for some of the small acts you have done? Maybe also try reflecting on other small acts that have been shown to you and stop taking things all out of context.

The world does not live in little test tubes for ur manipulation. Maybe I should thank you cos if not for now, I would have been truly blinded to how despicable and low you can actually stoop down to. It's time for you to look into a mirror.

beWARE

Begone are the days of lil courtesies, they have now been dismissed with familiarity. Lately, with the fannoyance meter rising, patience wears thin and the urge to WARE becomes ever so tempting and instinctive. WARE often pronounced in Cantonese means to swipe, tear, or merely be plain bitchy! T, E and I have been "ware-ring" at each other ... no malicious intent intended of course. Most of these is usually unleashed at each other because we cannot obviously do so to the fannoying perpetrators themselves lest we get shredded to bits or even vaporized! But thankfully, during our tea breaks and "ketchup" lunches, we retract our claws and learn how to play nice. :P

Good Riddance

The fannoyer is leaving us. My feelings towards this are indifferent but perhaps now, I will be less fannoyed less likely to blog about it since my inspiration will be gone once he is gone. Oh mabbe T will have stuff to add from her ever inspirational environment. Well, one thing for sure, what will we remember of him? Here are some notable quotes:
"When you are handling event, you cannot enjoy!"
"Must justify!"
"How do you tell a fat girl she is fat?" amongst other notable quotes lah. Hmmm...i am ok with as a person but then I just cannot respect him as a supervisor coz he is not a leader. Nuff sed.

Blur Duh Doh!

Today, I did some research on wot the fannoy wanted and told him that most of time, "dat co" holds such events around august according to the press release findings that I got. then he asked wot about this year? I'm like "HUH?!?of coz I dunno lah!" Hullo? I mean it is only Jan now wot...he think I can predict the future or I got time machine izzit? DOH!!!*slaps forehead and surrender*

Duh Taichi Master

Wot can I say? Duh Taichi Master is @ it again. This time shoving the whole overseas trip @ me to handle claiming that he cannot do it based on some lame crappy excuse. What is new? Skivers only use lame excuses! Much more grousing for the day. At first, I thought my fannoying days were over coz he seemed to be improving but nonetheless, his teamwork spirit is still much to be desired. Take leave oso dun bother to at least inform and only wait to the 11th hour then say! I oso dunno wot is the worth of having him in the team...as cantonese say, DA PEI meaning "fart"!